What’s In The Stars For Me?
One of the executives at my company and a friend of mine gave me the most original gift that I’ve ever received for my birthday: an astrological reading. She is a huge believer in astrology, and has been going to a man named Astro John for years and raves about him.
Astro John was booked around my birthday, and the earliest he could fit me in was last Friday night. Yes, Friday night. I have been living the most boring of lives lately that it’s totally OK with me if I stay home and talk to an astrologist on a Friday night and go to bed by 11. This is my life.
When I scheduled my reading with Astro John, he asked for my birth day, time and location. After tracking down my birth certificate (under the passport, behind the journal I bought and only wrote one entry), I sent back the information and waited.
After several weeks went by, it was finally the big Friday of my reading. Astro John is located in New York, so although it would be more fun to do this sort of thing in person, there was no way I could travel to New York. So, we scheduled a call up to two hours. Two hours!? What in the world would we have to discuss for two hours? I jokingly told people that I hoped the call would last that long, because if it ended up being a really short call, that would mean Astro John had seen nothing in the stars for me, and that I would die at a young age without achieving anything. Or worse, I would die an old, spinster cat lady who had no life experiences to speak of (hence the short reading) who lived with twelve cats in a one-bedroom apartment and ate Chinese food every night, alone.
When I mentioned my upcoming reading to Chef, he joked, “Oh yeah, the reading where some guy you’ve never met is going to tell you I’m not the one, right? That reading?” Funny.
I have to tell you, I was really concerned that the reading would be bad. Like the story of the tea leaf reader who told my mom when she just 14 years old that she would die in a horrific car accident in a red car. That psychic made my mom forever fearful of getting into red cars.
As I was when I went to go see Psychic Sophie, I was worried he’d tell me one specific thing: that I made a huge mistake leaving my ex and canceling the wedding and that I’d never find love again. Luckily, Psychic Sophie didn’t say that, although she did say she didn’t see true love for me anytime in the near future.
Astro John made me laugh, and you know it, he made me cry. Some of the things he said were spot on, and a few of the things he said made me scratch my head a little. I would know if most of the things he said are true until time passes. Fair warning, there’s a lot of information in my reading – but if you read on, you’ll hear all about my future, including when I’ll find love. Here’s what Astro John said:
- Cha-cha-cha-changes. Beginning in late 2013, early 2014, I am going to go through a series of cycles that will last for about eight years. Each of those years is going to feel like the end of an era and the beginning of a new. I’m going to see lasting, durable changes each of these years, and in the process, I will reinvent myself in every part of my life. This sounds exhausting.
- Late bloomer. I am a late bloomer, and I will find that just when all my friends’ lives unravel, my life will start to come together. Things are meant to happen later in life rather than sooner for me. I have always felt anxious about my life, asking myself “Why isn’t X happening yet?” or “When will X happen for me?” The reason things aren’t happening for me yet is because I’m not ready for them. Late bloomers also spend much of their early lives living according to expectations of other people, trying to bring peace and satisfaction to other people, often at the expense or delay of their own happiness. In some ways I feel this way, but in some, I don’t. I’m torn.
- Meaning of being a Capricorn. I am a Capricorn, which means I am dedicated, hardworking and sometimes hard on myself. I pressure myself to achieve, and when I don’t do as well as I’d hoped, I really beat myself up about it. I should relax, stop putting so much pressure on myself and let nature take its course. I definitely am too hard on myself sometimes. Sometimes I think it has helped me achieve greater, but lately it just feels like a burden.
- Spring is coming in 2014. I’m in a wintery phase in my life, and have been for a long time. Like a farmer who tries to plant seeds in the middle of winter, nothing will grow. Spring will come for me in the end of 2013 and the beginning of 2014. I need to be patient until spring comes. In 2014, I will reinvent and discover myself. I will do things that I’d never even considered doing, and everything that I never thought would happen will happen. During this time, I’m going to start a whole new career. It’s going to be an entire different direction from what I’m doing now (public relations/marketing). In fact, the efforts I put in right now won’t matter in 2014. Worrying about the next promotion, searching for a new job, none of those things matter. 2014 will be a whole new ball game. 2014? That’s in forever! Guess that means I can take a vacation, huh?
- A major career change. The major career change I will make in 2014 will be that I will write. Astro John didn’t know if will be a writer per se (and if so, if it would be fiction or non-fiction), or if I will just get a job that will include a lot of writing, but he said it would be a major career shift for me. Cue tears. All I want in the world is to be a writer. Hopefully he’s not seeing an obituary writer in my future.
- I haven’t even begun my life yet. Everything big for me is going to happen in 2014. Sometimes, I really do feel like I haven’t begun my life yet. I remember saying my ex fiancé the night of our engagement party that it felt like my life was finally beginning. Funny how things turned out.
- Always waiting. I was born the day before a new moon, which means the moon couldn’t be seen in the sky very easily when I was born. When you are born before a new moon, you feel like you are always are waiting for the next thing to happen or for the next opportunity. It always feels just around the bend, but it never seems to come to fruition. I definitely have felt like this my entire life. I always feel like I’m waiting, waiting, waiting. Like at any minute, something big is going to happen that will change everything.
- Rising sign of Sagittarius. My ascendant sign is Sagittarius, as it was rising in the East when I was born. This sign represents my outer personality, the side of me the world sees. This side of me is only skin deep. But, the word sees me as optimistic, enthusiastic, glowing, fun, joyful and expansive. Often, I can be naïve or downright gullible. I’m not sure what the world sees when they look at me, but I buy it.
- Manage expectations. The combination of my dedicated, serious Capricorn inner sign, and my optimistic ascendant sign of Sagittarius means that I can get really excited and optimistic about things (Sagittarius) and then be really let down and grim if they don’t turn out well (Capricorn). This means I have to actively manage my expectations. Yep.
- My love signs make me a romantic. Venus/Mars were in the sign of Pisces when I was born. Venus and Mars are the love planets, and them being in Pisces is representative about how I have a wavering quality in my love life (wavering, like the waves or water). I can get dreamy and romantic (sometimes overly romantic) when it comes to love. Maybe I am overly romantic. But I blame it on romantic comedies and Jennifer Aniston, not the planets of Venus, Mars and Pisces.
- College plans. If I had talked with Astro John before I decided my major in college, he would have recommended that I major in journalism or something that had to do with literary pursuits or creative writing. This is really interesting because I initially wanted to go to school for English and creative writing. When I told my father about this, he said that was a stupid idea. I felt silly, agreed with him and scrapped the idea. When I mentioned this to Astro John, he said that was my true self coming through.
- Career opportunity. At some point between July and October of this year, I’m going to have a career opportunity. It will either be a new project or job description at my current job or an opportunity with a new company. This will feel like a big deal but it’s nothing compared to 2014. Okay, Astro John. I’ll get excited, but not too excited.
- My love life last year. In the area of love, last year was a bad year. From the period of the end of 2009 to October 2010, I went through a period of dejection. January 2010 and October 2010 were really bad months, where I felt like a motherless child. Okay, we all know last year sucked. This was the one part during the reading that I felt like Astro John was completely off. January 2010 was one of the happiest months of my life. That’s when I picked out my wedding dress and did the bulk of the wedding planning. So I can’t say I felt like a motherless child then. And October wasn’t so bad either.
- Predictions for my love life. My love life since October 2010 and for the time on the horizon looks mild, pleasant, casual, friendly … all simple words. I will experience nothing too exciting or grand. After June of this year, Astro John suggests I get out there and date and have fun, and focus on getting some life experience. Not every relationship has to be the one. I will not experience real love in the next two to three years. I may eventually find love with someone who has repeatedly entered and exited my life, but it will take me a while to be ready. In fact, marriage is not in the picture for me until at least 2014. Ouch. Shh. Don’t tell Chef Astro John said that. Whoops, I already did. And immediately felt like a jerk.
- Marriage. On the bright side, Astro John does see marriage and being a mother in my future. Thank God. At this point, I gave Astro John a little background about the canceled wedding.
- My almost wedding. My breakup with my ex fiancé and the fact that at the end, I caught him in a lot of lies, is indicative of the naiveté of the Sagittarius side of me. There were tell-tale signs that were always there, but I wasn’t looking. And part of me didn’t want to see him for who he really was. I was ignoring the signs because I wanted to get married and I wanted the life I’d planned. But, when I was planning to get married, it was like planting seeds in the winter. There was no way a marriage could grow. Cue the tears. Even if this stuff is total BS, that line about my marriage being like planting seeds in the winter broke my little heart.
- Did I make a mistake leaving my ex? I gave Astro John my ex’s birthday information and he said I would never have been happy had I married him. We were cut from different cloths and he would have never been able to give me the life on which I was counting. It would have been the biggest mistake of my life if I’d stayed with him. Whew! Perhaps Astro John was just telling me this because he knew it was what I wanted, no needed, to hear, but what a relief. Crisis narrowly averted.
- What’s next. If Astro John could control my life and make my decisions for me, he would tell me to do something either selfless or selfish. If I choose selfless, I should quit my job and do something like join the Peace Corps or work for the Habitat for Humanity. Since the time I spend focusing on my career now until 2014 does not really matter, I should find a creative and productive way of kill a few years. If I want to be selfish, I should do something fun, like take painting classes and explore the world. Until 2014, I should focus on experiencing life and myself. I have spent too long being someone’s daughter, someone’s girlfriend or someone’s employee. It’s time to spend some time being Catherine. Now is the time to live. Wow, this is pretty inspiring. Scary. Invigorating. Impossible. But actually possible, even though it doesn’t feel that way. But who changes their life plans from an astrology reading?
So, I’m off to join the Peace Corps, stop worrying so much about everything, date numerous men (The Year of Yes!), and patiently wait until 2014 when my entire world will change. And I’ll be a writer, people! Don’t worry, I’ll send a signed, first edition to every one of you. Just as long as you are willing to stick around the next three years while friggin’ nothing happens for me and I don’t find love.
What do you guys think? Do you believe in this stuff? Or is this reading so general that it could be anyone’s reading? Are you in for the long haul? 2014 is a long way away ….
The good news is the reading went on for about an hour and 40 minutes. At least I know I won’t be a cat lady or die super young.